I always thought wearing your heart on your sleeve, or being tuned to your emotions was a good thing. In my case, it's a bad thing, seeing I don't know when to turn it off and on in different situations.
Well, I need to start turning it off. I hate being an emotional person that invests a lot of feelings into things, only to have it shoved right back in my face. It's a learning and growing process. Especially dealing with friendships and relationships. I know everyone goes through this, it's a part of life, but it gets harder to accept when you get older. You find yourself removing friends or placing them in different categories.
No, that doesn't mean bitch or slut. It means, you have the friends you can count on no matter what, your going out friends, your work friends, your yoga friends, or whatever your group may be. Well, what's so hard about that? Keep those friends in certain groups. You know how they are, you know what to expect from them, easy-peazy.
Wrong.
It's different when you're more emotional. You may think a certain friend falls into one category, but in their mind, it's completely different. I guess I'm just sick of feeling like I care so much about something or someone, only to find out they really don't give a shit.
If you're gonna be my friend. Be my friend. If you're not, then take a hike. I want a full-time friend, not part-time. Not someone who just comes and goes as they please. Not someone who just comes around when things are good. Or to fill a certain void in their life, whether that be boredom, their boyfriend/girlfriend is away, loneliness, etc.
I need to stop having expectations. It's just a set-up for disappointment and failure. Or maybe people need to pull their head out of their ass for one second to be brought back to reality. That may sound rough, but sometimes I think people are truly unaware of how they come off to others. A person can only take so much. I know this can be fixed, there are just a few things that need tweaking. Hopefully everything will get better in time.
I love this post. It's more or less the story of my life right now.
ReplyDeleteFor one reason or another, it felt good reading "my thoughts" coming from someone else.
I wish you the best of luck in that department, and I hope everything works out for you :)
PS: That's a pretty cool quote.
I used to feel like this all the time. And by eliminating the toxic friends in my life who just didn't seem to care as much as I did, I've been happier than ever. Cheers to happiness :)
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